Our Dear Baby Z

Many of you had no idea that my husband and I were expecting our second child. The Lord saw fit to give us other plans and that child (Baby Z) has returned to heaven. I was led to pour out my thoughts on that day and now to share them with you all. I pray this posting ministers to someone who has in the past or is currently coping with a loss. No, I never had the opportunity to hold my child but a bond was formed between the two of us and this sense of loss is real.  This was indeed a devastating blow for me but GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL AND I LOVE HIM FOR WHO HE IS !

My plans are to memorialize Baby Z by placing the writing below in a frame along with his/her ultrasound picture and an angel charm bracelet.

 

On 5.31.12 Baby Z went back to Heaven. I am thankful to have been used as a vessel by the Lord for this specific purpose. I imagine that I was used to house an angel for a short period of time so they could experience a glimpse of being in the natural. Maybe he/she needed a reminder or maybe this was his/her first time on this side of Heaven. This reminder allowed them a boost, an additional drive to remain in the army of the Lord. Baby Z may have previously been assigned to me but not really sold on why he/she should fight so hard for my protection against Satan. So the Lord brought he/she here, through Reggie and I to see first hand why I am worth it; why God calls me His beloved. I pray that I passed my portion of the assignment and that Baby Z is now another angel guarding my journey here. Amen.